Your actions speak so clearly to me
the things I’ve always known.
You prove so well
what I’ve fought so hard to unlearn.
You’ve reminded me of beautifully masked
and how wonderful they look and feel
across my mishandled emotions.
I swam in an ocean of fake laughs
and half-hearted secrets.
I gave you my word,
and in my heart that’s where I’ll keep it.
Maybe I am to blame for knowing
that in the back of my mind your true colors would come out,
but there I was, ever willing to bless you with
benefits of the doubt.
I am forever hopeful in the things I don’t really believe
because maybe someway, somehow
what I have given I will one day receive.
I pity you.
I really do.
Because you are incapable of seeing
outside of you.